This zine is about what it has felt like for me to heal, slowly but surely, from complex trauma. It’s not a how-to guide, more of an exploration of questions like: What is emotional stability like? What is it like to be present in your body? What is it like to rest? What is it like to be in relationships of care? How do things feel different now, from day to day, after so much time and work and healing? It focuses throughout on how the process of healing has helped me better live out my values of community and solidarity, and touches on topics like sobriety and recovery, transition, somatic practice, antiracism, and the importance of weird art.